Please tell me if you think I am wrong.
Why do I worry and occupy my mind so much with people that have stable, secure parents with money? I hate it! It's like their kids get this awesome head start in life. I feel like I'm trying to pick up the pieces and my parents don't even care what I'm doing while everyone elses are just all over them attending to their every need. Sad. I wish I could just ring my mum and even talk about money as a subject without it getting out of hand. I wish I could just not worry about money. I wish my parents would just be normal and have jobs and ring me or email me. They don't even know how to turn a computer on. Well maybe they could.
I dunno. I just feel jealous of those that have this head start. And I feel like my life revolves around trying to get my head start, so I can move onto other things. But then these dicks can already move onto other things. AND THEY DON'T EVEN APPRECIATE IT!
I guess all I'm saying is sometimes I'm scared of being alone. Sometimes the thought of it's all up to me now to create my life scares me. I feel like I don't have the capability of doing it and that I'll just turn out like my mum. I feel like there's no escaping my familys mentality. I just wanna be real and inspire people and explore and I think art is a way of proving to yourself that you really are unique and there's nothing else out there like you. I dunno.
And I guess they other thing I'm saying is I hate spoilt brats. They. make. me. SIK.